Uncensored, May 28 to June 2, 2005
Greetings To All!
The last Uncensored article I wrote was pretty much all over the place. I did get a little aggravated when I found out TDCJ guards were sending hateful e-mail to Suzanne in relation to Richard. The main thing that pissed me off was that it showed the guards were taking their job home with them, which shows that they believe that they are helping Texas kill us! So that makes it personal.
Awhile back I was coming back from visit. The female guard who was excorting me asked me “Why do y’all hate us?”
I told her “First off, not all inmates hate you all. Some think they are officers, too!” She laughed at the truthfulness of my statement.
I said “Though seriously it is like this. We are here to die. When it comes time to go to the Walls Unit to be slaughtered, and the rank tells you to help load me up in the van, you’re gonna help.”
Her reply was “First off, they don’t ever ask me to help with that, and if they did, I would not do it. I just work here.”
I told her “I hear ya!”
Truthfully, it basically comes down to this. The officers are going to back and support each other. Their motto that is on most officers hats is “We take care of our own.”
So convicts should look out for each other and support each other. Though sadly this doesn’t always happen.
If an officer gets assaulted, there have been times that other officers have retaliated by assaulting the offender, though not always and it is rare that the officers retaliate like that.
A lot of people don’t understand the life behind these walls. In prison it is an “only the strong survive” environment. Even some officers adhere to this ideology
Just as a lot of people don’t understand why myself, Richard and a few others let the good squad pepper spray us and run in on us. I mean, they do have a shield and riot protection gear on, helmets and pads! So it isn’t like the officers can get hurt that much. It is a show of resistance and that we will not accept the pointless oppression.
One guy here asked me “Man why do you do that crazy shit?” This was after I got gassed 4 times with a total of 20 ounces of pepper spray.
My reply was “well, I can’t sky dive or bungee cord jump!” All joking aside, it is a rush! There is a very large chance of the convict getting hurt. There is a metal desk, metal bunk, plus the toilet. On top of that, you get an average of 5 200 pound men running in on the person. So a thousand pounds smashing a person up against a metal desk can result in s serious injury!
It does send the message that we are not afraid to go to an extreme to stand up for something and that we aren’t afraid to resist. Hell, my biological father used to beat the hell out of me with 2 X 4 boards. So I damn sure am not afraid of getting punched on or gassed. I treat others as they treat me.
There are a lot of stupid rules here. One of them is that our face is supposed to be clean shaven. My thinking is I am here to die, why the hell are they worried about me shaving?!
They say for security reasons! Ha! The real reason is they want to maintain absolute control
Other prison and Death Rows across the nation let the convicts grow their hair and beards. Some Death Rows allow convicts to have contact visits with their loved ones.
Texas has the only Death Row in the United States that does not have T.V.s.
We can have a radio. We used to have a lot of problems with the reception, however, Major Nelson had them come in and fix the coax cable and all that good stuff.
I spend a majority of my time on Level 2 and 3 so I hardly ever have a radio. Only Level 1’s can have a radio. So I naturally did not care too much about the receptions. I mainly just mentioned it to thank Major Nelson for getting the antenna fixed for those who do care about listening to the radio.
If I am going to knock them when they do wrong, then I am going to give them their prays whenthey do right!
I want to get off the subject of prison life and write about a few other things that is interesting to me so that the readers can get to know me a little better.
I get National Geographic and The Smithsonian magazines. The june issue for both had King Tut, the ancient Pharaoh of Eqypt, on the cover. The story is about them taking King Tut’s body and doing a CT scan of his whole body. They then constructed a model of what he looked like by using data from the CT scan.
The readers can go to http://www7.nationalgeographic.com/ngm/0506/feature1/index.html and view King Tut’s Tomb and the model that was created of him. I do not know about you all, but I think that is pretty neat, myself. I mean, you care looking at the face of a man who lived 3,300 years ago! That is awesome.
I have always liked history and science. The way that the tombs and pyramids were built is truly fascinating. I wish someone would go through all of that trouble for me, when I die!
I am going to bring this one to a close today.
Well, I am back. It is 3:13 a.m. and the breakfast cart just got on the pod. I wonder what is in store for us today Most likely it is pancakes. They serve pancakes like for or five times a weeks! They get real old, real fast!
I know that Richard was to post an article every week. My case is currently in the state courts. Nothing has been ruled on yet. So I do not really have that much to write about as I do not want to be repetitive. I will be posting articles by-weekly, Though I will have a few other people post article so that one will appear every week!
Well, they just served breakfast and sue enough it was pancakes! We get 3 pancakes at a time and we get them an average of four time a week. So that is twelve pancakes a week. So that is six hundred twenty four pancakes a years. I have been here 2 years and 6 weeks so that means I have ate an average of 1,320 pancakes since I came to death row! I am sick and tired of freaking pancakes. Hopefully something decent will be given for lunch.
Due to budget cuts, we only get a dessert twice a week. It is up to the prison Warden when those two days are. We get it on Saturday and Sundayt.
I stopped writing this for a few days. It is 06/02/2005. I made Level 1! Nothing to be too happy about. I manly came to Level one so that I could visit my wife more and get a few visits with people who are trying to help me get off of death row.
From reading newspaper articles it seems Texas stands a good chance of getting Life Without Parole as an option for juries. I am sure that will drastically reduce the amount of death sentences in Texas. A step towards progress.
I got to knock out a few letters. I am going to wrap this up.
Keep fighting the good fight.
Standing Tall, Fading All, Never Fall,
3872 FM 350 S.
Livingston, TX 77351